In Which I Discuss Trivial Matters of Relationships before I Go on My Mission
Monday, May 12, 2008 10:50pm
30 Days to Go and counting
I noticed yesterday that I have all these pent up feelings inside me that I should probably let out before I enter the mission field in 30 days. You know, I never thought going on a mission would be so hard. But it has been tough. Everything in life is going to change and the months that precede your MTC date are the days that you work out everything, or try to at least.
The things that have to change if they aren’t in line with the mission rules already are, starting with easiest to hardest:
30 Days to Go and counting
I noticed yesterday that I have all these pent up feelings inside me that I should probably let out before I enter the mission field in 30 days. You know, I never thought going on a mission would be so hard. But it has been tough. Everything in life is going to change and the months that precede your MTC date are the days that you work out everything, or try to at least.
The things that have to change if they aren’t in line with the mission rules already are, starting with easiest to hardest:
Personal Hygiene (hair,teeth, cleanliness)
Music types
bed time and waking up time
ATTACHMENT
phone calls (cell phone use)
computer - emails
relationships-HARDEST EVER
I’ll explain later what has happened between Blair and I. Most recently though, I’ve had to endure her (mostly her) decision to cut down talking on the phone time. Don’t get me wrong - we aren’t like other pairs; we talk about stuff that have been happening in our lives. It’s just been painful not being able to talk to her has much.
I also go back to how I felt when we would touch, holding hands or massaging each other’s arm or rubbing the other person’s skin. At that time, I felt so awesome. It is hard to describe touch. And I miss it, the feeling that I get.
Blair is an awesome girl. She was the one that controlled any hint of relationship and stopped it when she felt that things were going too far.
The thing is, we both were new at the relationship thing. We both didn’t know what was too far. I feel like in the finding out what was too far, we may have gone too far. Nothing serious, fortunately. And fortunately, Blair is more in tune with her emotions and feelings to know when things might get out of control. She took the reins and stopped it before things got messy. She’s a great girl.
I can’t believe she’s her age. She was born July 17 and she is 17 at this present moment in time. She is so mature and all she cared about was that I could be worthy of serving a mission.
Well, in a month I will be in the MTC learning Spanish, and then maybe by August I will be in my first area in IOWA, the Hawkeye State, also home to lots and lots of corn.
I’m doing my best to learn as much spanish as I can right now but it is difficult and somewhat overwhelming at times.
I am getting my Endowment at the Redlands temple on Wednesday May 14, 2008. I am actually very excited and things have been going well. Besides having lots and lots of pent up feelings.
Music types
bed time and waking up time
ATTACHMENT
phone calls (cell phone use)
computer - emails
relationships-HARDEST EVER
I’ll explain later what has happened between Blair and I. Most recently though, I’ve had to endure her (mostly her) decision to cut down talking on the phone time. Don’t get me wrong - we aren’t like other pairs; we talk about stuff that have been happening in our lives. It’s just been painful not being able to talk to her has much.
I also go back to how I felt when we would touch, holding hands or massaging each other’s arm or rubbing the other person’s skin. At that time, I felt so awesome. It is hard to describe touch. And I miss it, the feeling that I get.
Blair is an awesome girl. She was the one that controlled any hint of relationship and stopped it when she felt that things were going too far.
The thing is, we both were new at the relationship thing. We both didn’t know what was too far. I feel like in the finding out what was too far, we may have gone too far. Nothing serious, fortunately. And fortunately, Blair is more in tune with her emotions and feelings to know when things might get out of control. She took the reins and stopped it before things got messy. She’s a great girl.
I can’t believe she’s her age. She was born July 17 and she is 17 at this present moment in time. She is so mature and all she cared about was that I could be worthy of serving a mission.
Well, in a month I will be in the MTC learning Spanish, and then maybe by August I will be in my first area in IOWA, the Hawkeye State, also home to lots and lots of corn.
I’m doing my best to learn as much spanish as I can right now but it is difficult and somewhat overwhelming at times.
I am getting my Endowment at the Redlands temple on Wednesday May 14, 2008. I am actually very excited and things have been going well. Besides having lots and lots of pent up feelings.
You know, readjusting life to living at home again hasn’t been all fun and games either. Going from absolute freedom to restriction but freedom is a difficult things to deal with. Fortunately, we had a good conversation about everything. One of which was my necessity of finding a job, Fortunately, my dad respects the fact that I don’t have a job. There is only a month anyways.
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