In Which I Talk About the Last Few Moments With Blair
Thursday, May 15, 2008 11:12pm
27 days
Hmm, what did I get accomplished today? Let me think, oh yeah, pretty much absolutely nothing. Today was a wasted day on my part. I spent too much time watching TV or surfing the internet or both at the same time. Well, it’s Thursday-almost Friday, what can I say? I need to get thigs started again in my mind.
I did call Blair, and for a brief period of time (like 2 seconds) we spoke. At least I know that she made it to Georgia alright. She’s taking a break from her Helaman Halls CA (conference assistant) job and is visiting family for a week.
Well, since I did almost nothing productive today, I’ll write some of what happened between me and Blair:
So, it was two weeks until second semester ended and, well, I had somewhat been avoiding Blair since we broke up in Winter, because I was too head over heels for her. We still went to the temple every friday morning but we had stopped really talking to each other. My family came up for conference. My siblings had an awesome/brilliant plan for me to go on a date with HER to the Nickelkade. I even told them that we weren’t really talking as much or seeing each other so I was afraid for my response. Well, I gained my courage to ask her and well we went and no awkwardness except I was careless with my words and I said it was a good thing my “my family” invited you because I wouldn’t or something like that and she thought I hated her which was totally opposite of what I actually felt for her.
Well, after my weekend with my family in Salt Lake and after thinking and more thinking (it was probably Sunday) that I got home but actually my mind keeps on saying that it was either Tuesday or Monday. Anyways...Sunday night, after Conference in April. We went for a walk and a long talk. We talked and talked and talked.
I can’t remember if it was that night that we walked to the temple. We took walks a lot so it is easy to get them confused.
It was a timing issue. All time. The biggest thing that I remember that night is that she and I had to leave the apartment because it was after 12am. We went and sat by her apartment on a bench in a small child’s park. We were both freezing. She said that she missed us spending time together, I told her about mixed signals; she didn’t want to talk about Becky (understandable), I told her I didn’t know where the line was of steady dating, etc. This wasn’t the night we walked to the temple, but we did stay up til like 2am or maybe 1.
In a nutshell to be opened later: she invited me to a Red Carpet Dance. I was a jerk about it in the beginning. (I think it was because I was afraid she would start disliking me after a horrible dance). To make up for that I bought roses and a corsage. I gave one each day for two days and she really liked that. The dance went well. We held hands the night before, and she didn’t hate me after the dance. We started getting comfortable with each other (rubbing, massaging) during movies, reading, studying, church. People spoke up. We stopped our whole last week April 21-25. We weren’t destined to take pictures with each other, we worked on a puzzle, I called her after I had left. I miss it. Having a girlfriend. Having someone who cared about me physically and emotionally.
27 days
Hmm, what did I get accomplished today? Let me think, oh yeah, pretty much absolutely nothing. Today was a wasted day on my part. I spent too much time watching TV or surfing the internet or both at the same time. Well, it’s Thursday-almost Friday, what can I say? I need to get thigs started again in my mind.
I did call Blair, and for a brief period of time (like 2 seconds) we spoke. At least I know that she made it to Georgia alright. She’s taking a break from her Helaman Halls CA (conference assistant) job and is visiting family for a week.
Well, since I did almost nothing productive today, I’ll write some of what happened between me and Blair:
So, it was two weeks until second semester ended and, well, I had somewhat been avoiding Blair since we broke up in Winter, because I was too head over heels for her. We still went to the temple every friday morning but we had stopped really talking to each other. My family came up for conference. My siblings had an awesome/brilliant plan for me to go on a date with HER to the Nickelkade. I even told them that we weren’t really talking as much or seeing each other so I was afraid for my response. Well, I gained my courage to ask her and well we went and no awkwardness except I was careless with my words and I said it was a good thing my “my family” invited you because I wouldn’t or something like that and she thought I hated her which was totally opposite of what I actually felt for her.
Well, after my weekend with my family in Salt Lake and after thinking and more thinking (it was probably Sunday) that I got home but actually my mind keeps on saying that it was either Tuesday or Monday. Anyways...Sunday night, after Conference in April. We went for a walk and a long talk. We talked and talked and talked.
I can’t remember if it was that night that we walked to the temple. We took walks a lot so it is easy to get them confused.
It was a timing issue. All time. The biggest thing that I remember that night is that she and I had to leave the apartment because it was after 12am. We went and sat by her apartment on a bench in a small child’s park. We were both freezing. She said that she missed us spending time together, I told her about mixed signals; she didn’t want to talk about Becky (understandable), I told her I didn’t know where the line was of steady dating, etc. This wasn’t the night we walked to the temple, but we did stay up til like 2am or maybe 1.
In a nutshell to be opened later: she invited me to a Red Carpet Dance. I was a jerk about it in the beginning. (I think it was because I was afraid she would start disliking me after a horrible dance). To make up for that I bought roses and a corsage. I gave one each day for two days and she really liked that. The dance went well. We held hands the night before, and she didn’t hate me after the dance. We started getting comfortable with each other (rubbing, massaging) during movies, reading, studying, church. People spoke up. We stopped our whole last week April 21-25. We weren’t destined to take pictures with each other, we worked on a puzzle, I called her after I had left. I miss it. Having a girlfriend. Having someone who cared about me physically and emotionally.
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